mandag den 31. januar 2011

Faster!

I cannot get enough of the new song from WT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=clK7UTpuuos

fredag den 28. januar 2011

Who do you think you are?

Yeah! Who do you think you are to think that you can correct me?
To tell me what is right and what is wrong?!
You're probably not any better yourself!

I think I don't care about all these comments I get, but in the end they all hurts me and makes me more crazy.
Unsecure about myself.
Hating myself more.

It all hurts.

lørdag den 8. januar 2011

Sleepy... zzzzzz


Pretty <3


My body is completely tired today...zzZZZZzzz
But I can't seem to get any sleep at all because I keep going to the bathroom because I'm sick >.<

Maybe I'll go look in our mailbox to see if my book has arrived. Then at least I can read that one!



When do I learn better?

onsdag den 5. januar 2011

Yet again! =O

Once again it's been a while since I have written on my blog. >_<
I'm really getting bad to take some time and write something down. I guess my head is all too messy for me to write down reasoneble things.

But! Life goes on as usually. Nothing big to say. Still figthing a long though fight with my depression.
It feels like it's getting worse.
I guess I'll never fully recover from any of this.
It's like I keep figthing and asking for them to let go of the chains around me, but everytime I look in the mirror I get the same answer.
I have never had so many scars on me as I have now.

But I can finally make a ponytail with my hair! Keep on growing god dammit!! xD

Working in the shop is also going fine at the moment. I'm just a bit afraid of staying out in the shop with all the costumers since I suffer from panick attacks with too many people. Even when I sit in the back of the room working it's though. All the voices are too loud.
It's gotten to the point where I really am not allowing anyone to touch me/hug me or even just pat my shoulder. It makes my heart almost skip a beat.
I'm afraid of everything and nothing at the same time.

I really don't know what to do of myself. Hmmm

I really need to talk to my parents again soon or write a letter for them.

Hmmm.

Let me fade away into nothing and everything....