So after a little more deep and hurtfull talk to my neighbour last night I finally got enough of holding back!
Earlier this day I wrote my feelings for him! It felt good to get it out of my system.
But I still haven't heard a word back from him. I'm nervous as fuck, but it was for the best to let him know eventhough he might not feel the same.
So now I just wait for him to give me an answer at some point...